Afterlife

In my last (very very depressive) entry in this blog, I was mentionning death. Yup! That thing that ends it once and for all for each and every one of us. Ever thought about what you'd like to have or be or whatever once you pass away? I sometimes do...

One of the thing I'd like, would be to become some sort of a bundle of energy... a soul that could travel anywhere it wants across the entire universe for the rest of eternity (Warning, paradoxon inside! There's no end to something infinite so... erm... just forget about it). That'd be awesome. I'd like to be able to travel all around and see it all, feel it all, know it all... gather informations for myself, see things I was unable to see from this tiny little piece of rock we call earth. Man... just thinking about it makes me want to... but no. There's still stuff to do here for now.

The other thing I'd be tempted in, would be a big island-world-thingy, populated with people and animals I love and also have passed away. Although, I guess I'd be very quickly be bored to death (another paradoxon inside, I know, thank you), it would be a cool thing too. Maybe just as a vacation of, let's say, 500 or 1000 years. After that, I might need something new (I already imagine myself sitting on the beach screaming for someone to get me out of there). But I'd really like to be able to spend some time again with my loved ones in perfect peace, without the horrors of everyday life. Some separations are just too hard... no tears... no... I won't cry...

As a perfect atheist, I should say that I truly believe that this is just some wish-thinking... it's not that I would be disappointed if there was just nothing afterwards. Blank screen, over and out. But I just can't help it... even being such a logical thinking person, I can't help myself... there's probably some surprise after enduring such an overdose of reality. It would make some sense... but I don't really know why. I believe in something like a "soul" (not the religious way, rather a scifi way). An energy that animates the body and enables it to do more than just to breath, eat, drink and die. Else it would be just too easy to reanimate dead bodies... what the hell is this spark of life inside of us, which "leaves" the body once it's burned out?! Or maybe it doesn't leave... it could very well die with the body. Like a star which just stops to blink.

I'm very curious and impatient to get an answer to all this, really. Although I might not be able to do much with it, but hey... who knows? Maybe the answer itself is the reward for all this. You know, maybe a bit like the lucky cookie you get after a meal in a chinese restaurant... you crack it open and it says: "Sorry buddy, Game Over!" or something like that.

Well whatever it will be, we'll have no other choice but to accept it I guess...

I HATE SUPRISES!!! Oooooh... but there's still time until then I hope, so for now and until the next entry into this fantastic blog of mine,

Good night to you.